Get in or get out
Why is it that when we really care about someone, no on else can compare. Even as you fight with yourself to see it otherwise, even when you know it’s not good for you. Even as you want to feel that way about someone else, when there are so many good ones out there and you feel as though you’ve wasted your chances to find someone worth it because you can’t seem to see past this other person.
It’s a constant battle. Trying not to talk to them, trying not to see them even though they are your best friend. You try to distance yourself in the hope that over time, it’ll be easier. But of course, weekends come, and you’re sucked back in again.
It’s not that they’re a bad person, in fact they’re a very good person. It was you who was the bad one, and now it seems karma is enjoying tormenting you. You tell yourself over and over that it will work out in the end, but as time keeps slipping away, you start to really wonder…
2 Responses to "Get in or get out"
I’ve been there. It is really hard. But all I can say is you’ll get there over time. Eventually you’ll come to care about someone else as much (or as in my case) even more and then you’ll look back and realize it might have looked good at the time but looking back you know they weren’t the one for you. For me it took finding someone else who I really fell in love with to be able to see that.
March 12, 2010 @ 5:27 AM UTC
Totally understand where you are coming from, hope it gets sorted soon